Back in Atlanta for a while…
Once again among the trees, the mysterious clouds, the traffic (and accident attorneys), the jets and the power lines woven through most upward glances.
And there’s noise here.
I’m adjusting… Slowly. And again.
Since 12/12/12, an underlying theme has been weaving itself through my days and nights: “Accept and allow Change. It arrives Slowly. Gradually.” I’m gathering that this is the natural way of things, in this Universe.
I feel immersed in a foreign culture, one that expects, prays for, longs for, immediate/rapid solutions to perceived problems. I also feel plunged into a “cold dunk”, to realize – gradually – that “perfection” NOT = joy/peace/contentment/happiness. And the “problems” may actually indicate their own solutions, if we take a deep breath and look at things from a different point of view.
Moving to Pagosa, I’ve been learning a little about patience and reliance without expectation. Allowing myself to be air-lifted by the hawks and ravens into the skies that change constantly and rapidly and reveal mysteries regularly. Accepting that -9 degrees F in Pagosa feels warmer than 37 degrees F in Atlanta. Home is where the heart is.
When I look back across most of my life, I see tremendous effort expended in attempting to establish ground rules, understand, control surroundings, relationships and outcomes, so that I can prepare myself appropriately. Knots.
Perhaps I’m almost at the point of simply flowing and receiving. I’m learning about Pagosa Time, Hopi Time, and taking My Time, while being thrust back into Atlanta Time.
Change permeates everything in my life right now, and I welcome the change where my energy is shifting towards posting more again. I hope I’ll be sharing various bits on my various blogs, according to topics (Ah, vestiges of control!): dreams, messages I’ve received, drawings, pictures and words…
Much is happening, it’s just quiet, slow and gradual, and most times there are no words sufficient.
I hope you’re all having a pleasant and peaceful beginning of 2013, and I look forward to traveling the year with you.
leslee hare 
Leslee! You live!! So, can I ask why your back in Atlanta?
Hi, Mike! New email address, eh? Why Atlanta? Well, in one word: WORK. However, methinks there’s more than one kind of work afoot, so I’m also trying to keep my head above water and eyes on the horizon… ;)
I’ve been told that having this work will help ease $ stresses, and that will help keep me “clear” for receiving. I welcome that!
Also, I’m telling myself it’s only temporary. Gonna keep a place in Pagosa as long as I can, because I think that is where my “home” is.
I hope you and Cher’i are doing well! Maybe we need to do a hangout and catch up?
Much love to you both!
Your recent ponderings and realisations so parallel what came to me as “Obliquity”(http://bennaga.wordpress.com/2013/01/26/obliquity/). I can only shake my head in wonderment..
And your words almost always have a similar effect on me, Ben!
As spoken by enthusiastic young folk in the US: “I know… Right?” ;)
:D
Timely post.
Hi, Elena!!! Glad it resonates for you!
Your soulful flexibility is everything Leslee – wherever you are you will find meaning – keep the spirit of Pagosa in your heart…
Thank you, John, for the encouragement! I’m finding that doing what you suggest is possible, and it feels like an exercise that’s helping me understand how we can integrate so many appearances that don’t seem to “make sense”… :)