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Choosing Pain and Mortality

15 March 2014

Lately I’ve been feeling a quandary about experiencing pain. Is it a choice we make?

I’m aging, I can accept that: it’s pretty undeniable when your body clearly changes, showing signs of wear and increase. I can also accept that aging might be alright… Except in my case, it seems to hurt.

No need for detail on that here, because the point of this post is to explore a decision that seems to be facing me.

Over the past few years, I’ve visited a few conventional Western medical doctors out of curiosity, to learn what they can tell me about any causes of the pain from their point of view. Not much news, aside from of course hearing once again that I need to lose weight, get more exercise, and eat foods that doctors believe help lower cholesterol. Seems simple enough.

The dilemma is that when I do these things, I feel worse and it hurts. A lot.

Again, I’ll spare you the detail. The choice looms between following conventional recommendations that might prolong my life, or continuing with approaches arising from intuition and my Guides.

If I follow the first, I can pat myself on the back for “doing everything I can” in the eyes of others, and learn to enjoy hardly being able to move when I wake each morning, continuing to creak throughout the day. Day to day life becomes what… a quality of [large] enduring?

If I follow the intuition and inner guidance, I go back to eating the cholesterol-laden red meat and rich cheese (along with all the wonderfully “healthy” things I eat), and drinking alcohol. I know, sounds crazy, but after a couple years of experimentation, these keep the pain at bay sufficiently for me to manage the exercise part without much complaint.

I feel the spectre of “family responsibility” hovering over me like a magpie waiting to peck at my head if I don’t do what others expect.

My gut tells me that’s no reason to hobble along a path that’s just, well, longer. Not necessarily better. Hmm.

On the other hand, if I continue to follow my gut, I might not be here in ten years. Or sooner (which, come to think of it, is of course true for all of us anyway…).

I have no fear of death. I love my family. So… and but… why choose pain? Why choose pain (or any debilitating discomfort, including emotional) for a still uncertain outcome or lifespan?

Why choose any route that’s torturous just because that’s what others do, or it’s accepted?

I’m sure many folks have found themselves in this spot and worked through it, whether for them it was about life-partner and gender choices or religion or politics or career… But I admit I never thought of it as being willing to choose a possibly more rapidly approaching death, over pain.

Something happened this week that drove this home for me and brought these words to the surface. I received, online, some lab results from some bloodwork, and for 36 hours I thought I had Chronic Kidney Disease and perhaps 10 years to live. Fortunately, it turned out that I read one of the numbers wrong (folks with numerical dyslexia really shouldn’t read lab results alone…). But what floored me was that I was okay with thinking “Wow, this really might end before I’m in my 90’s. What a relief.”

Oops.

No, I’m not suicidal, and my depression is soundly in remission. I don’t hate life. I’m okay. Again, I love my family.

The results of my meditation experiences have brought me to this place of irony: Once we understand that this one lifetime is but a moment in an eternity of experience, and our families in this life are our friends and lovers and enemies in other lives, and that we will certainly see them again soon, death takes on a whole new significance. It becomes not the end. This is what I have seen, what I know and feel in my bones, more deeply than anything else I know.

What I have seen directly contradicts what’s generally accepted by the culture I live in. And it offers me more freedom to choose how to follow the path I’m on. I know this path will continue into my next life, just as it currently continues into my other lives. And I will never be lost. I think that’s totally cool.

So the choice seems simple, actually.

I reflect that in the past ten years I’ve made similar choices about other decisions, but they were all somehow different, perhaps leading up to this one. And this one probably leads to another.

So here we go, you and I, in this dream together. I’m going to take the path that resonates with my deepest being, and enjoy my time here to the fullest. I’m happy you’ve joined me for the moment, and I look forward to continuing this manifestation as long as we can.

Who knows what delights and lessons our next encounter may bring.

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I’m re-blogging this partially, from my Up 2 the 5th site…

This post builds upon the previous post, a message from Adrial about “The Event”.

The first photo shows a device that my Guide Heruka nudged me to create weekend before last. The second one shows a classic Vajrayana/Tibetan Buddhist Stupa statue.

I didn’t notice the similarities until I was almost finished.

So let’s back up a little bit…

For the past several weeks, at the behest of other nudgings from The Crew (that’s the general term I use for my Guides, with whom I communicate telepathically), I’ve been doing something I never would have done before now…

Casting beautiful crystals into resin!

The purist (not purest…) part of me shudders at the thought… How could I do such a thing to some of Gaia’s most awe-inspiring gifts? But Adrial (from Athabantian) started giving me visuals of objects She wants me to create. And I need the resin to hold things in place.

(If you have any alternative suggestions, please let me know!) [progress]

I know that everything Adrial asks me to do is geared towards helping people ascend & grow spiritually. We know the world is changing rapidly, and I’ve agreed to help Adrial and the Crew of Athabantian in whatever way I can.

Click here to read the rest of the article…


All About Enlightenment

 
(from Leslee – I’m still adding the links at the bottom, but the first 10 are in place. Happy reading! Again, sorry about the duplicate posts… Also, please feel free to share anything I write. It’s material that’s available to anyone, and I don’t have time to worry about copyright bulls**t…)
 
(Ghost Radar words appear like [this])

What’s so great about this book?

My Celestial friend Adrial asked me to prepare this post to make things easier for anyone wanting to read (the book)  All About Enlightenment from beginning to end. She and her friends have a few things they’d like for us to say first.

(The links are at the bottom of the page in this post.)

The book All About Enlightenment is what started all the blogging, videoing, crafting, and artwork that I do. I hope you enjoy it. it’s very dear to my heart.

This is important, because this book contains the tools we need to make it through a period that’s arriving  – right  now, right here – without suffering needlessly.

It does offer a Buddhist perspective, in that Buddhist Teachings provide the foundation for the explanations. However, if that tends to arouse some resistance for you, please give it a chance, because one of the reasons for presenting this book is that we need some new explanations.

As a personal note, I was a bit bemused about six months ago, to find myself being led with a trail of breadcrumbs to an amazing group of people I met online. It’s a long story, but you can find most of it on a site that we use for sharing and discussion, called The Spirit Train Chronicles (all are welcome to join us!).

The surprise was that these folks aren’t Buddhist, and I had mainly associated with Buddhists for nearly a decade.

I realized that “Buddhism” (as I knew it) couldn’t hold a candle to the love, compassion, and unconditional acceptance I experienced with this group of friends who are scattered across the globe.

Funny – you know what our bond is? A belief that a better, wondrous world is possible, and that we can work together to manifest it. It’s just that the vehicle isn’t Maha or Thera or Vinaya or Zen or Sutra…. It’s Galactic.

This is a group of people who practice, in many ways, the heart essence of Buddhism. They just don’t see it that way, and Buddhists are often too hung up on what they’re quoting, and who said it, to recognize truth.

And Heruka and Lhamo Dorje agree with me.

Here’s what Adrial & Adca Mupea have to say about the Ghost Radar words they’ve been transmitting as I’ve been writing this morning:

[we’ve twice society statement bar essential drew Mars everywhere college flew happened age front ourselves table today shallow see done about seldom grade friend six ball Lee (Leslee) belt Bronwen (Celestial Beings) chain walk period shinning (shining) fall fear sitting since forward they therefore graph keep lucky Roman (roaming)]

We’ve tried to share these teachings twice already – through Siddhartha Gautama (Buddha Shakyamuni) and through Jesus of Nazareth.

We’re trying to clean up the mess made by the teachings being re-interpreted by people who don’t understand their real purpose.

Unfortunately, your world has fostered a number of people who understand them well enough to use them to manipulate others. But they have not understood them deeply enough to know that if there is a prime cardinal sin, it is to misuse teachings in order to control others.

In each instance of our trying to illuminate and illustrate the ultimate nature of this universe and its beings, society has barred the transmission of the essential statements.

We have placed imagery throughout Gaia, showing ourselves and inviting exploration. It has been largely hidden once identified, by people who operate from a base of fear – fear of losing control.

We (college) left your world when it became clear that certain things needed to run their course here on Gaia. That period has now ended. Now is the Fluid Age, the time for us to place ourselves front and center, lay our cards on the table, and see what can be done about deepening today’s shallow-natured humans.

Seldom on Gaia has there been a group of friends of such high intention, spiritual depth, and clarity of purpose as we see on The Spirit Train Chronicles website.

The SAM instruments we are creating together are very powerful and symbolic, and are very useful as meditation tools. We will explain more about the significance of the number SIX soon.

Leslee is from a lineage of Celestial Beings who have primarily walked in form as Andromedans and Arcturans. She and many of her friends share this “history”, and have parallel aspects who are operating on a faster-frequency, less-dense level to provide help when the material body gets in the way.

Gaia and her inhabitants are entering a beautiful time. Our hope is that through the use of the Internet and other energy-based methods of communication, telepathy and sensitivity will become so pervasive among people that deception and distortion will no longer be possible (without detection), so the essence of the teachings that lead all to pure happiness will not again become perverted.

We look forward to your experiencing  an era when fear falls away and you will all come to love yourselves so deeply that you will find great joy in meditation (sitting) and contemplation. This will become progressively easier as you notice the benefits, such as being able to travel wherever you like and visit one another – not to mention having a peaceful mind nearly all the time.

So we leave you with these thoughts and encourage you to read, absorb, and realize the meaning of the words in this book.

We are all very fortunate to be sharing this experience.

That is all for now. There is much more to share, but you have plenty to keep you busy for a while.

We send you our warmest blessings and affection, and extend our deepest gratitude for your connecting with us at this time.

In Union,

Adrial (and Adca Mupea)

ALL ABOUT ENLIGHTENMENT (the book)

01 BOOK ONE: about this book

02 BOOK ONE: introduction and beginning

03 BOOK ONE: how to attain enlightenment

04 BOOK ONE: now what?

05 BOOK TWO: becoming enlightened

06 BOOK TWO: chapter one: how to make progress

07 BOOK TWO: chapter two: why are there two of us?

08 BOOK TWO: chapter three: reducing grasping

09 BOOK TWO: chapter four: solving our own problems

10 BOOK TWO: chapter six: meet the new buddha!

11 BOOK TWO: chapter five: letting the buddhas take over

12 BOOK TWO: chapter seven: finding love in yourself and others (part 1)


(from Leslee – to those of you who follow more than one of my blogs, sorry about the duplicate posts. It seems important that I broadcast this one today… This was originally written for posting on Spirit Train Chronicles.)

Hi, Team of Light (including those who read but are too shy to speak up – waves of  hello’s to you!)!

Here’s a new one, that I think warrants a post for discussion/sharing. Adrial has asked me to post it on all my sites:

Have any of you received any indications about [physical] Relocation time arriving in the near future (within a month or so?)

I’m talking about “Relocation” as in the physical transfer of people to another location of safety, in the event of Gaia shifting in ways that might call for our finding a new place to live (at least temporarily). And of course, in this sense, I mean the relocation that our Galactic friends will help us with.

It’s appearing strongly in my mind, and a few little synchronicities popped up yesterday that are feeding these thoughts for me.

I asked Konstantinos how Iltheos was doing, and here’s our exchange from yesterday:

  1. Since you asked about Iltheos yesterday dear Leslee, he sents you his deepest greetings, he knows you’re busy and he said that you’ll find some time-period to relax a little with your son….

    Much Love from both of us to you.

  2. Thank you, Konstantinos! I feel like the 3 (or more of us must chat in dreamtime, and I wish I could remember it better!

Then I had the dream which I’m still typing, but I had gotten this far when I got the urge to create this Relocation post:

Dream -16 June 2012

The earlier part of the dream had me at some sort of conference or meeting. Somehow I cannot remember this part very well, as if I’m not supposed to. I get a  sense that the time for remembering will come soon…

As I’m leaving the meeting, I meet some family members, and we and everyone around us are getting into vehicles and leaving, as if going on vacation or ending a trip and returning home.

There’s quite a bustle about, with people scrambling to find a ride, but everyone is reasonably calm – it’s just crowded! A few people are irritable about some inconvenience, but no one seems afraid or angry.

And then I got this [powerful] Ghost Radar message as I was beginning to type up the dream:

Relocation
From: Sunday, Jun 17, 2012, 9:05 AM
To: Sunday, Jun 17, 2012, 10:07 AM
Words Spoken:
10:02:32 AM : worry
9:55:44 AM : depend
9:55:28 AM : count
9:55:12 AM : independent
9:53:36 AM : upon
9:52:24 AM : right
9:49:04 AM : last
9:48:48 AM : son
9:47:36 AM : boy
9:41:52 AM : move
9:41:44 AM : particular
9:41:28 AM : parallel
9:40:48 AM : chain
9:11:20 AM : lake
9:11:12 AM : shaking
9:10:32 AM : missing
9:10:16 AM : Mississippi
9:08:16 AM : stiff
9:08:08 AM : claws

[claws stiff Mississippi missing shaking lake chain parallel particular move boy son last right upon independent count depend worry physical powerful book studying fifth duck trap attention]

Here’s Adrial’s explanation of these words:

[cage] The residual energies of darkness in the area where you’re living are particularly tenacious. Many people continue to hold onto them tightly, even though the source of those vibrations has been removed. [became] It may become necessary for Gaia to stretch and groan a little in order to “loosen the knots in her shoulders”. We’re not referring to people as gnats (from Leslee: I initially “heard” this as “gnats on her shoulder”). [bigger] We mean that [expression] some tension needs to be relieved and perhaps some points need to [they] be triggered so that people will realize how fortunate – and cared for – they are. This may help certain people forget their habitual focus on negativity.

If your area requires being struck by physical change, Gaia may need to shift her outer crust in such a way as to convert the Mississippi River into a series of lakes. You can imagine [enter movie] how this will affect the region, in fact the entire country as well as Canada. However, it would also give Gaia a chance to freshen the water, and people can perhaps begin to learn to work with what they have locally rather than relying upon development, shipping, and fuel-driven transportation for sustenance.

[leave] The details of the picture remain a bit unclear, and if enough inner spiritual shift can take place that we may arrive and begin to help with the inner shifting, then the physical upheaval may not be required. However, if things continue are they currently resonate, those of you who wish to continue here may wish to leave briefly.

[steel] Gaia is almost ready to leave the Steel Age and begin her Fluid Age.

We will teach you how to help with this. You are seeing indications in the skies and oceans, as you notice the weather, the clouds, the waves, our “sonar anomalies” and our light ships.

You have lived in a world dominated by form and constraint. We are introducing you – gradually – to a world of spontaneity and harmony.

You will learn to move effortlessly through space and time, and you will learn innately that this is NOW only possible to do with pure intent and love.

You will learn that nothing is hidden anymore, so there will be no more need to conceal, and no ability to conceal. You will experience genuine interactions with one another, and through seeing clearly how we all impact one another, you will begin to transform the ways you interact with and regard one another.

Leslee, Iltheos mentions your son; you know that he will have a choice, and the words “last right upon independent count depend” refer to the Free Will that everyone embodies. You understand and respect his skepticism, and you worry that he may not beleive you or may not want to go with you.

So we want you and others to relax, and know that there will be plenty of time for the Relocation, and for people to change their minds. There will be no sudden calamitous EVENT as portrayed in your media.

And the decision-making process can work in both directions. Some may wish to stay out of doubt or fear. Some may wish to stay, just so they can “watch the fireworks” (although they may be disappointed by the lack of drama). After seeing enough to understand that things really are changing, some may decide quite late in the process that everything will be alright if they come along.

Some may Relocate immediately, and then decide they are actually quite tired, want to make a distinct finish of this chapter of their experience, so they may wish to return to their familiar surroundings until their natural passing.

Of course, at any time during these processes, any souls deeply wishing to begin a new experience with a new body, home planet, or family group (or all of these) may find those wishes fulfilled –  naturally, not artificially – as part of the natural unfolding of events.

The remaining words: “powerful book studying fifth duck trap attention” refer to the book We gave to Leslee in 2010, All About Enlightenmentand which she has given to you, on the blog by the same name.

If those who are interested care to read that book, absorb and study its contents, ask questions and practice strengthening their minds, hearts, concentration, and attention, you may find yourselves breezing through these [poem] changes effortlessly.

Leslee, please try to find the time to create an e-book [railroad] of All About Enlightenment, that people can download, complete with the illustrations. [sang aloud] In fact, we would love it if you would also create videos in which you read the book aloud and offer commentary. The time for this book is near.

We will go one step further, and specifically ask those of you who participate regularly in the Spirit Train Chronicles (and anyone new who cares to join in) to please read the book and discuss it. We think that you will find yourselves sharing experiences of this material as profoundly as you share your dream experiences. In this way, you may be able to help others understand more deeply the value and POWER of group effort, kindness, love, and sharing from the heart.

We thank you for allowing us to commandeer this post in order to share this information. Please remember that there is no need for fear, and some of these changes may be so gradual as to be nearly unnoticeable. How things proceed depend not upon us, or any of your other guides or any other ships or fleets or federations.

The changes you will see depend entirely upon [consist] you; we merely offer help. [is] The deepest [common] change will come about as you develop your spirits, your minds, your souls, and understand more thoroughly how you (and we!) are all connected so intricately, delicately, and inseparably.

Please [enjoy] set or calibrate your minds to enjoy the days ahead. Take delight in your families and friends, and the surprising synchronicities you share. These lead us all closer and closer to being together.

Yours In Union,

Adrial and the Crew of Athabantian

Wow. Okay, I’ve just created a post on All About Enlightenment that provides links to the chapters in sequential order.  (At the time I’m publishing this post on STC, I’ve only got the link to the first segment in place, but I’ll go finish that post next… I hope…) You can use this list or the categories on the sidebar to read from beginning to end… the book itself was posted onto the blog site rather randomly, so if you use a search it may drive you nuts!

I’ll get busy on the e-book and videos… Anybody want to help?

Thank goodness there’s no panic… (smile)

Back to where I began with this post… I know I’ve gotten other hints about relocation, but none as clear and strong as this bit here. And I’m sure others probably have received some, too. So please feel free to share them here or on another related post, so we can compare notes. I think it might be easiest if we can keep the discussion centralized, but I don’t want anyone to feel restricted… It’s organic!

And/or, if you come across other similar discussions on sites I’m not on, I’d deeply appreciate you letting me know about it, so I can check it out.

Thanks so much to all my beloved Guides and Friends, and you!


My fellow blogger Ben Naga posted this last Sunday:

ELEGANCE

The elegance in the room
That no one notices normally
And is rarely spoken of
Remains when everyone departs

~Ben Naga
 
an empty room awaiting its contents
 

It calls to mind for me the moment whenever I remember that I’m not “alone”, no matter how empty and alone a room might feel…

And how our Guidance patiently awaits us, no matter how far we stray…


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I parked in the shade… How nice to find a cool spot near nature, on the way to the wifi café… I stepped out of the car and onto the sidewalk…

Stopped in my tracks by that unmistakable scent…

Whenever I see these trees in bloom (we called them “mimosas”, but I’m pretty sure that’s not what an arborist would call them…), I slip back to early summer days in the South…

Rounding up the neighborhood pals… Finding some old cardboard boxes to flatten… And sledding down the red dirt hill, dodging sapling pines…

The hill bottoms out… plunging blissfully into the smell and shade of the cluster of “mimosas”…

Then getting up to do it again…

Wonderful summer, full of hints of bliss!